Easy Road

What’s your dream?

Oh, my dream is simple.

What?

Marry someone with money and be a woman of leisure.

That’s a pretty big dream. What are you doing now to attain that?

You have to know your people, be seen, be noticed.

Do you know who your people are? By the way, have you looked into a mirror lately?

Are you mocking me?

I’m not. It’s an honest question.

You don’t know a thing. You have no right to tell me anything.

That’s right. And you know everything. That’s why you’re looking for someone with money to marry you.

Oh shut up!

I will not shut up because I don’t want to see you sell your soul to the devil in order to have it good. To have good things you need to work for it beb. Not wishing you’ll have it and expect others to work their butts for you. Trust me, if you don’t come back now, you’ll end up offering your pride to them. It’s not worth it.

It’s my life, it’s my call.

True. It’s your call. That ego of yours, is the thing that will bring you down. Mark my word. And when you’re down there, you think YOUR PEOPLE will rescue you and you feel safe. Reality check Missy. When you’re down and out, the only person that will help you, is you, no one else.

Here's What I Want...

I want more of that health.

I want more of that wealth.

I want more of that patience.

I want more of that intelligence.

I want more of that creativity.

I want more of that laughter.

I want more of that energy.

I want more of life.

I know it can give me that.

I am in the process of getting them.

Tak Habis-habis

Those who know me, know that I really, really, really love this song. Feel like posting it here. It's the one song that I can't really get out of my mind. One of the reasons being my heart was broken around the time of the song and it had been broken one too many times. OK let bygones be bygones you say. I couldn't agree more. I have let go and moved on. But the song just kinda stuck because it's so good. And good thing lasts a long time. Like McDonald or KFC or chocolate mudcake (ye, pada sapa2 yg terasa tu memang aku nak kau terasa hahah)

So enjoy this version with Sara Evans. Brad Arnold look so good eh considering he almost lost an ear in an accident two years ago (I just googled it, old news hahaha)

Bang Bang Bang...

There’s not a single soul in this world is without problems. An obvious statement but really some people need to be reminded of that from time to time. These people act like they’re the only living souls that have burdens to bear.

The irritating thing is, they make sure that other people know that they have this so called unsolved problems. Someone should just tell them that the time they spend whining and lamenting about how stricken their lives are, could be used in finding the solutions. But off course, these people are not interested in solutions. They are more interested in looking for attention and sympathies from the poor people who thought they are doing them good by lending ears.

Come on, you lamenting about your so-called troubles over and over again, is getting old. YOU are getting old. Isn’t it time to grow up and face whatever it is you have to face in the first place? Take that gun and fire it.

All in One

This is a month of celebration for me (though I don’t really feel like celebrating, but then that’s just me, the celebration is more for others than me). The month started with my suspicion being confirmed by the doctor. Yes, it’s been six weeks. Alhamdulillah.

Then I celebrated my 33th birthday on the 12th. As with previous birthdays I had nothing planned, but yes I got a sweet surprise when my partners sang the birthday song for me at exactly 2 midnite. Then after work that day, my beloved editor cum partner treated me to a karaoke session. That was real fun.

My good friend organised a little get together with a few of our blogger friends at his abode in conjunction with the new year last Saturday. The guy is a damn good cook. (Di, aku punya mud cake mana?). Some of these friends I’ve met before in a different gatherings. It was a a good enough fun and the food as usual was great. He’s planning another get together, if I’m not mistaken, early next month.

And last but not least, today is my beloved mother’s birthday. Mak is 55 today. Though we don’t usually celebrate her birthday with cakes and food, my sisters and I will try our best to at least get her something. This year she’ll be getting a beautiful bracelet from me. Sure hope she likes it.

Pic senget. Genting 2006

Marilah Mari Pergi Mencari Maruah Diri Yang Lama Menyepi...

The electioneering is nearing. Yes, and like previous polls, I’m one of those tortured servants’ souls that will have to do whatever the masters say. But off course, they can’t stop me from bitching.

This is a vicious cycle indeed. Once you’re involved too deep, it takes everything you have to escape from it. That is if you have the guts to do it. Most people lack that gumption, even if it means getting out will make their life much better.

So am I still talking about the electioneering? Off course I am, always been from the start. When I became a registered voter a few years ago, I was excited to perform my duty, being a good citizen and all.

So what’s the problem? Apart from the fact that I don’t like the duty I’ll be doing on that day and that Lembah Pantai will not have one count of vote? No problem, not at all.

Don’t mind me. Do what you think is right. Or what they think is right. Whatever it is, Undi anda adalah rahsia!

Berdua-duaan..Mesti! Mesti!

Lonesome became twosome. Twosome becomes threesome. And it goes on and on. See I told you, everyone and everything is changing and if you still wondering what's going on, well I don't have anything to say to you, you're just not worth it.

No matter how long it takes, or how hard you resist, the change will take place eventually. So, let it be. A friend said she had been single for the past year (and was happy with that) and didn't expect to change the status so soon. But what do you know, she's now seeing someone and seriously thinking of marriage. See, that's a good change.

Another friend, who has been in the singles market, also for the past year, now is yearning for intimate conversations with a soulmate. Don't worry brother I sense a good change will come your way in the near future. A good man will find a good woman. Always.

My husband is also a changed man from before. He's now more depressed and prone to suicidal attacks. Hahah Ok, that maybe what some of you want to hear but sorry to disappoint you. He's more determined than ever to follow his dreams. Off course he can't afford to back down now since he has more mouth to feed.

Yes, change can be a good or bad one. But why do you want to be the worse if you can be the better? A question I'm asking myself at the moment. Giddy up Moon!




You Gotta Be - Des'ree

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry

You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day

Herald what your mother said
Readin' the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
my oh my heh, hey

Don't ask no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
You can't stop it, if you try to
This time it's danger staring you in the face

Mirror Mirror On The HUGE GIANT WALL...

I am avoiding all mirrors now. Not because I've done something terribly wrong that I can't look myself in the face, but because this unplanned expansion of my once beautiful body. (Beautiful means just nice, with a bit of extra fat here and there). Sigh! Such is life.


Everyone says we all needs to change, that we should welcome change with open arms and open heart. That I can't argue because it's so true. Even if I try to argue I know I'll never win.

But, you see this very change that I'm experiencing it's not good, because I don't feel good. Sigh again. It's bad because I can feel the arteries are closing up, clogged by fat. It's happening inside me and I can't do anything to stop it.

Well ok actually I can la. Exercise more and eat less. But that's such a drag la. I want to be like Nanny Fine who can eat and eat and eat and eat and eat without packing the pounds. Got ahh like that?

Sigh again and again.

I'm avoiding mirrors and glass doors now.

Friendship Lost

My husband lost a very dear friend last week. I didn't know the extend of their friendship until that tragic day. I didn't get the chance to meet this great man but I know he had tremendous affect in my husband's life. I'm sure each and everyone that knew him felt a huge loss the day he was called on by Allah. And many others still feeling it.

May your soul rest in peace.
Amin.