I want more of that health, I want more of that wealth, I want more of that patience, I want more of that intelligence, I want more of that creativity, I want more of that laughter, I want more of that energy, I want more of life, I know it can give me that, I am in the process of getting them.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

One Day At A Time...

Our trusted car broke down last week and had to spend a night at the workshop. That’s it no more Korean cars, said Amir. It has travelled as far as it could go and has served a wonderful time. I think it can go on for a year or two more, before we buy a new one.

I drove it back home from the workshop, after many months being the passenger. It felt good to do that, at least I know I still have the skill of driving dangerously, as dangerous as driving a cute little Atos can getla. Driving a manual car gives you a certain degree of authority, albeit a false one. So don’t fret when you see a woman or a man drives a small little kancil or kenari or even Atos like he/she is the only driver on the road, because now you understand his/her need to feel powerful.

Some people abuse the road to feel it, some abuse their woman or man or children and some abuse their positions. All that to satisfy what can’t be satisfied, the greed for power. We’re so caught up in this power play, in this ‘ketuanan Melayu, ketuanan rakyat’ thing, that we forget about one important thing, self-empowerment (driving like madmen and madwomen is not empowering at all).

We don’t empower ourselves dedicating our lives to destroying other people’s lives, it’s the total opposite of that. I know many of us are not so familiar with that practice because ‘tikam belakang’ is the only way they know to survive no thanks to the corruptors of power. Let’s do it one day at a time, let’s be a better person by extending a helping hand, one hand at a time. Shall we?

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Mudah, Mudahan-mudahan...

Dear Friends,

Please do not take this for a junk letter. Bill Gates is sharing his fortune. If you ignore this you will repent later. Microsoft and AOL are now the largest Internet companies and in an effort to make sure that Internet Explorer remains the most widely used program, Microsoft and AOL are running an e-mail beta test. When you forward this e-mail to friends, Microsoft can and will track it (if you are a Microsoft Windows user) for a two week time period. For every person that you forward this e-mail to, Microsoft will pay you $245.00, for every person that you sent it to that forwards it on, Microsoft will pay you $243.00 and for every third person that receives it, you will be paid $241.00. Within two weeks!, Microsoft will contact you for your address and then send you a cheque.


Mesti ada yang dapat e-mel seperti di atas kan? Goyah tak? Mesti goyah, sebab dalam keadaan sekarang dapat RM645 pun manusia yang kononnya penuh dengan adat ketimuran pun boleh bertukar jadi jenis yang macam tak ada tamadun aka manusia zaman batu, ini kan pula yang banyak giler seperti di atas. Ada seorang manusia dakwa dia dah dapat RM16k+++. Fuyohhh banyak giler babi pink kaler.

Ada yang kata, memang boleh dapat duit tu, memang ada yang dapat pun. Kalau ada bagus, lepaslah bayar instalment rumah atau kereta untuk beberapa bulan. Kalau rumah dan kereta dah habis bayar, bolehlah guna untuk tujuan lain pulak. Eee seronoknya.

Esok lusa dah habis duit, bolehlah forwardkan lagi banyak-banyak. Fuhhh senang..tak payah berusaha keras-keras. Agak-agak dah tingal 5k lam account tu, forward lagi pada 500 orang. Boleh lah dapat untuk down payment untuk Fairlady plak. Wuhhuuu…


Bill Gates best kan? Macam tulah sepatutnya, orang yang dah kaya raya WAJIBLAH tolong sogokkan duit untuk orang-orang miskin. Baru ada balance. Yelah orang-orang tu dahlah miskin, takan nak suruh orang-orang tu kerja kuat macam Bill Gates mula-mula dulu. Gila hapa? Orang-orang mana leh kerja, orang-orang duk keras tengah sawah. Pantang mak nenk orang-orang perlu berusaha.


P/s Tengah baca Success is Never Ending Failure is Never Final

Monday, June 23, 2008

Wish You All The Best Things...

I know I’ve been blessed, with lots of wonderful friendships. Friends have taught me a thing or two of what to do and what not to do to function well in this mostly dysfunctional environment of a society. For that I am very much grateful.

Reading about the four types of people outlined by John C.Maxwell in ‘The 21 Indispensable Qualities of A Leader’, I can proudly say that I’ve met and know the four types. They are:

Cop-outs: those who have no goals and do not commit.

Holdouts: those who don’t know if they can reach their goals, therefore they’re afraid to commit.

Dropouts: those who start toward a goal but quit when the going gets tough.

All-outs: those who set goals, commit them, and pay the price to reach them.


I’ve been the first three and now working my way to be the fourth. I’ve taken the first step, which counts for everything. Are you with me?





Hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you wanna go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything...
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to, Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And always give more than you take.But more than anything, yeah, more than anything...

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Pass It On...

The ‘Baby/Princess/Babe On Board’ sticker is NOT the ticket for any of you to drive like madman running loose on the road. Why you must think that OTHER PEOPLE MUST take extra caution FOR YOUR BABY/PRINCESS/BABE’S sake is beyond me. I know you are not as stupid as you look, so why insult your own intelligence by acting like one?
Karma is a sure a thing, as many of you will attest, so if you don’t want people to shit in your yard, DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT pass motion on other people’s yard.

And another thing, if you do not wish to live anymore after the petrol hike, please kill yourself where only YOU will die. In other words, DON’T engineer any kind of accidents on the road and drag other people with you. Some of us still have many things to achieve in life. You can always stick a Rambo knife into your heart or use it to cut your wrists.

For those few, who read this blog, please pass this on. Your cooperation is highly appreciated.

P/s no time is perfect than now to replace our old thinking with a new one…

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Money, Money and More Money...

Money IS NOT the root of all evil. I think we know what or rather who is the root of evil. Many of us try to defend the notion that money is not everything, that there are more important things than money. Well, you might want to rethink that thought, especially now.

Everything that is important to us needs money. Our family, our health, our children’s education, even the job we faithfully goes to needs tons of money, you know the parking, the petrol, the breakfasts and lunches, the toll, the clothes we put on, the many shoes, the accessories. So tell me, who doesn’t need extra money now? Thought so.

The leaders want us to ‘change’ our lifestyle. I think we all know what ‘change’ means la kan. They actually want us to ‘downgrade’. Instead of driving a comfortable car, they want us to ride a motorbike, instead of eating the finest foods, they want us to settle for Maggie mee and air suam, instead of aiming to buy a bigger house, they want us to look for a 3 bedroom bird’s house. So for many of us who has no car but a bike, live in flats (don’t get me wrong, I used to live in one, my grandmother and many of my relatives live in one), eat Maggie mee and drink air suam the last two weeks before pay day, how much downgrade can they do? Tak ke mcm bodoh statement konon-konon ‘leaders’ tu?

Kiyosaki and Trump have stated their book “Why We Want You To Be Rich” that in America, the middle class is disappearing leaving only the poor and the rich. Well, when America sneezes, the whole world (altogether now) CATCHES COLD. That’s right, things are not as rosy as it used to be.

So what are we going to do now? Follow the so-called ‘leaders’ advice and change our already pathetic lifestyle? Go with the flow and hope that someone will throw us a lifeline? Or take matters into our own hands? Our life, our choice, right? RIGHT!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Not Ungrateful...

I am not an ungrateful *toot*. For all the sufferings I’ve endured here, I’ve learnt so much and experienced many sweet memories that I’ll treasure for the rest of my life. As much as I hate the place, I am thankful for the lessons it has provided me.

I am thankful for:

The friendships
The knowledge
The invaluable insights to life
The trusts
The respects
The admirations
The treasure hunts
The bowling tournaments
The annual dinners
The teh tarik sessions
The sports carnivals
The netball practices and games
The chocolate cakes
The genuinely funny jokes
The concerns when I was sick
The commissions

It’s not a waste after all.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Rindu...

Antara perkara yang akan dirindui:

1. Jenaka dan kata-kata berunsur lucah yang dipertuturkan oleh lelaki dan wanita pertengahan umur.

2. Suara-suara lelaki dan perempuan bersembang-sembang di surau sambil mengisi masa menunggu masuk waktu solat yang lain.

3. Nada dering, tahap 7 yang pelbagai jenis semasa orang lain menunaikan solat di surau.

4. Suara-suara orang lelaki dan perempuan yang menjawab telefon semasa orang lain sedang menunaikan solat fardhu, lengkap dengan hilai ketawa.

5. Makanan di kafe yang cepat habis walaupun jam baru menunjukkan pukul 12.55 tengah hari.

6. Jelingan tajam dan sikap endah tak endah tukang masak yang seolah-olah benci melihat aku.

7. Jamuan makan.

8. Perilaku petugas lain semasa jamuan makan, bagaimana mereka akan menyerang makanan hebat seperti sate.

9. Sindiran-sindiran tajam petugas unit lain yang marah kerana suratkhabar mereka hilang dan menuduh petugas unit lain merompaknya. (ye, suratkhabar)

10. Kemesraan para pengawal yang suka berdiri di belakang ketika kita sedang duduk menyempurnakan tugas di meja.

11. Mesyuarat selama 2 jam setengah untuk memberitahu petugas supaya menyiapkan kerja yang diberikan DENGAN KADAR SEGERA.

12. Menjawab soalan yang sama daripada orang yang sama berulang-ulang kali.

13. Menengking orang yang sama yang bertanya soalan yang sama berulang-ulang kali.

14. Mengajar seorang petugas bagaimana menyimpan nombor telefon/memadamkan nombor ke dalam telefon bimbitnya untuk kali yang 577.

15. Punch card.

16. Bonus sebulan yang dibayar 2 kali.

17. Honorarium pilihanraya sebanyak RM100, sekali dalam masa 5 tahun kerana bekerja dari pagi ke pagi selama seminggu. Oh unit lain paling kurang dapat RM500.

18. Kerja semasa Hari Raya, hujung minggu dan hari kelepasan am yang lain.

19. Sembang-sembang petugas mengutuk dan menghina kerajaan yang tidak membantu mengkayakan mereka.

Terlalu banyak untuk disenaraikan. Tempat jatuh lagikan dikenang...

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Beautiful Illusion

A funny thing happened just now at the company’s surau. These people here ALWAYS MAKE A POINT to perform the Zohor prayer 10 minutes before it’s time for Asar. They even have a name for it, 2 in 1.

When I arrived at the surau for my Zohor prayer (I’m no saint), it struck me as weird as there was no one there. It was so quiet. Then I remember that today is ‘Lucky Draw’ day. True enough when I went downstairs afterwards, half of the employees were holding their tickets, eagerly waiting for their numbers to be called to win some cool company’s merchandise.

YES! Company’s merchandise, it’s so rare that you can’t get them elsewhere. And it’s free!! We must grab whatever free things being offered to us especially when we are facing a pretty damn hard times now. We must redevelop the welfare mentality now since we can’t work harder than usual. We are the victims here, so spare a little sympathy OK??




Precious Illusions

You'll rescue me right?
In the exact same way they never did..
I'll be happy right?When your healing powers kick in
You'll complete me right?Then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right?Only when you realize the gem I am?

But this won't work now the way it once did
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

This ring will help me yet as will you knight in shining armor
This pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water
But this won't work as well as the way it once did
Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode
This won't work now the way it once did
Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
Now I know who I'm not
I don't I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

Friday, June 06, 2008

Pengajaran dan Pelajaran

Apa yang dipelajari semalam dan hari ini:

1. Orang yang suka pukul curi, tak menyangka yang mangsanya akan dapat menepis pukulan curi itu dan akan terkedu macam babi makan kapur apabila mangsanya menyepak dan membelasahnya secara berdepan. Dia akan cuba tukar taktik, tapi sudah terlambatlah.

2.Orang yang terlalu sangat harap orang lain/kerajaan jaga kebajikannya, akan melenting, mengamuk, merajuk, mencaci, menghina tak tentu hala apabila merasakan kebajikan dirinya terabai. Dia tak sedar dia sebenarnya perlu menjaga dirinya sendiri.

3.Orang yang tiada lagi semangat untuk meneruskan perjuangan hidup akan terus-terusan pasrah sehingga dia mati kejung.

4.Tangki minyak yang diisi sebanyak RM40 cuma dapat mengisi tahap seperti ia diisi dengan RM20.


5.Dua set pinggan nasi dengan 3 lauk satu set bersama air Nescafe ais dan the ais limau, yang dulunya berharga lebih kurang RM13, kini sudah menjadi RM17.


6.Orang yang keterlaluan berfikir sampai tidak sempat mengambil tindakan akan bermati-matian mempertahankan tahap pemikirannya walaupun isunya adalah kelemahan dia dalam mengambil apa-apa tindakan.


7. Orang lelaki pendek, gelap dan bermuka kelakar, nampak manis dan segak apabila mengenakan pakaian yang kemas dan bersih sambil membawa dirinya dengan yakin.


8. Mee goreng mamak terasa amat sedap sehingga teringat-ingat apabila sudah agak lama tidak merasainya.


9. Orang yang berhutang yang cuba bermati-matian mengelak daripada berjumpa orang yang dihutangi nampak di mata seperti keldai tua yang patut disembelih dan diberi makan kepada buaya.


10. Orang perempuan yang misinya mahu mengenakan orang lain tidak kira lelaki atau perempuan untuk dirinya berasa ‘besar’, mulutnya seperti terlondeh ke bawah dan wajahnya tiada seri jujur.


11. Susu Dutch Lady perisa strawberi jika disimpan di dalam peti sejuk selama 2 hari akan berasa lebih nikmat diminum sekaligus.


12. Pemandu bas Hop On Hop Off mempunyai karakter yang sama dengan pemandu-pemandu bas Metro yang kurang pengajaran.


13. Apabila seorang cucu tinggal bersama neneknya, cucu itu akan dibedaki dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki, DENGAN PUTIHNYA.


14. Seorang lelaki berumur 50-an, boleh memikat hati seorang wanita berumur 20-an, walaupun lelaki itu tiada memiliki sebarang kekayaan atau pekerjaan. Oh wanita itu pandu BMW.


15. Orang mengandung yang diminta goreng karipap sardin pada pukul 2 pagi, besar pahalanya apabila rela melakukan perkara itu.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

The Fearless Lead The Way...

‘Life Favours The Fearless”. Ye ke? Let’s see…

Lew Fong Voon, the son of rubber tappers from Perak, one of 11 siblings, established Lewre International Sdn Bhd.

Loloq, started out from a very humble beginning, soared to make name for himself with his unique style of writing.

Rozita Ibrahim, the founder of Sendayu Tinggi, was a single mother living in poverty before taking on the beauty business.

Wan Mohd Ariffin Wan Long and his wife Noor Hijerah Hanafiah, founders of the well-known Malaysian brand, Noor Arfa Batek, started out selling their batiks from hotel to hotel, using their trusted old car, Fiat 127.

Yusof Haslam, was a bus conductor, before he went into acting that paved the way for him to make ‘million ringgit’ movies and a name for himself.

Henry Ford realised his dream to produce affordable cars, after two failed attempts to establish a company to manufacture cars. He went on revolutionising the automobile industry and the world.

Richard Branson took on British Airway in a lawsuit and won.

Mary Kay, the owner of MaryKay Cosmetics, worked in direct sales during the time when women were stuck in the kitchen. She went on to establish Mary Kay Cosmetics Inc. in 1963 and changed the life of women all over the world.

Tom Cruise, a dyslexic, took on acting that changed his life forever.

Man are truly capable of the impossibles.

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

There's A Lot More To Life Than Just You...

Finally, now I can take milk. Dutch Lady Strawberry flavoured milk. The nurses seemed annoyed when I told them I had difficulties in taking milk. “Mesti ambik jugak walapun tak suka.”. The problem was, bukan tak suka, tapi bila tengok je dah mual, bila amik kuar balik. Abih camner. Ok, there’s soy milk. But soy milk has a terrible after taste. Mengada-ngada. It’s not about you, it’s about the baby, says you.

Oh well, now I’m taking two packets of 250ml Dutch Lady Strawberry flavoured milk every day. I feel healthier. And I think the baby loves it too. It kicks and kicks while I’m taking the milk, same kicks when I listen to music, read books or reciting the special surahs. Hehe.


Manusia. Is capable of anything, the impossible and the unthinkable. It seems impossible for someone whose parents were mere labourers to achieve millionaire status when he turned 30, but it has happened. It seems impossible for a disabled guy, who got rejected in every interview that he went to, to lead a good and purposeful life, but it has happened. It seems impossible for a budding filmmaker, facing bankruptcy, to produce a trilogy that has garnered serious attention and started a world’s frenzy, but it has happened.


It’s unthinkable for parents to abandon their children because life is too hard for THEM. But it happens. It’s unthinkable for parents to leave their newly born babies to the elements because they had made a mistake. But it happens. It’s unthinkable for a mother to sell her babies because she cannot take care of them. But it happens. It’s unthinkable for a mother to hate her children for asking so much and too much in life. But it happens.

Aku sedar sekarang. Dunia tidak berputar mengelilingi aku. But I was too self-centred to realise that. Now, that I feel this life inside me, my purpose is getting clearer each day. Yes, it’s not about you. Aku insaf.