Beautiful Illusion

A funny thing happened just now at the company’s surau. These people here ALWAYS MAKE A POINT to perform the Zohor prayer 10 minutes before it’s time for Asar. They even have a name for it, 2 in 1.

When I arrived at the surau for my Zohor prayer (I’m no saint), it struck me as weird as there was no one there. It was so quiet. Then I remember that today is ‘Lucky Draw’ day. True enough when I went downstairs afterwards, half of the employees were holding their tickets, eagerly waiting for their numbers to be called to win some cool company’s merchandise.

YES! Company’s merchandise, it’s so rare that you can’t get them elsewhere. And it’s free!! We must grab whatever free things being offered to us especially when we are facing a pretty damn hard times now. We must redevelop the welfare mentality now since we can’t work harder than usual. We are the victims here, so spare a little sympathy OK??




Precious Illusions

You'll rescue me right?
In the exact same way they never did..
I'll be happy right?When your healing powers kick in
You'll complete me right?Then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right?Only when you realize the gem I am?

But this won't work now the way it once did
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

This ring will help me yet as will you knight in shining armor
This pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water
But this won't work as well as the way it once did
Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode
This won't work now the way it once did
Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
Now I know who I'm not
I don't I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim