When Confused, Seek Help...

When I decided to take this chance to change my life, there was no indication whatsover of how difficult it would be. Two months into the business I felt so worn out and wanted to just hide under the bed and cry. I did for the whole month. He suffered along. But the selfish me didn't want to acknowledge that. I sought refuge in the books we bought. His love and the wisdom the books impart urged me to buck up and take control of the situation. Well, I did.

Now one of our partners is facing a great challenge of his own. And he seems want to give it all up. I'm very sad yet I understand what he's going through. When you think you don't get all the support that you need, you tend to think it's not worth doing. That it's so much easier to just let everything go and go back the way you were. Just remember, if obstacles were so easy to overcome, they wouldn't be called 'obstacles' were they? It's supposed to be hard, because successful people who faced real hardships and conquered them last longer than those who are 'successful' by virtue of their surnames. And these tough people turn out to be a real gem, looked upon by thousands of people.

This is a reminder to my partners as well as a reminder to self. Seek and you will find.




Adik-adik, you have all the support from us!

Here's The Truth...

As much as I want to think that I am already 'Merdeka', truth is I am not. Because I just don't feel like it at all. We celebrate Independence Day today, to commemorate the day our beloved Malaya stood on its own two feet, free from the hands of the colonial masters. But in almost every aspect of our life, we are far from being 'merdeka'. I'm here at the office, to complete the 5 day a week working rule. This coming Friday, I'll have to work double shift to make sure that Mrs Boss look good in the eyes of the Jokers Upstairs. Do they care about little people like me? They say they do, but we know better. The sad part is, I did believe that they really care once, but the longer I'm here and the more I see, the less I believe. So, I'm not in celebrating mood at all.

The So Called Independence Day...

Just like last year, I'll be working on National Day eve (finishing around 11). God help me because I'll be right smack in the middle of the city when all city dwellers will be rushing to KLCC to celebrate their so called independence day. Ayohh!I had a terrible terrible experience two years ago when I was stucked in traffic for almost 3 hours after the countdown. Mind you, I wasn't rushing to get home from KLCC. I had just finished work for the day (yeap, my life was as wonderful as it is now, working on shifts) and didn't think that the evil that was the city's congestion would affect me, the pekerja cemerlang. How shallow I was eh? Ya Tuhan! Will the same thing happen to me tomorrow? Sengsara dah rasa dah ni.

Larger Than Life

Wuhuuu..ok this is a real accomplishment. And ok I admit that he has influenced me in more ways than I'd like to admit. But all in a good way. I've started buying books AND reading them again. For before this, I bought books only to discover them hidden away 3 months later and wondered who's books were those. Now, a trip to the bookstore is a must whenever I feel, what's the word MG, obtuse? Which is well, quite often. Now I'm starting to think and dream bigger than myself. We all should.

You Are One Of A Kind!

A one hit wonder that I love. Think yourself as a unique person, the one and only for a change, and see how your life change after that.

I so love this time of my life!

Not A Blue Monday

The last time I went to the National Zoo was aeons ago. I can't remember exactly when, but I know I was still in primary school. There wasn't much to remember back then. I knew I took the ride on the coach and that was it.

It must have been a not so enjoyable trip because even when I went there yesterday with Amir and my nephews, nothing rang a bell. Maybe it's a different zoo, that's why I couldn't remember a thing. Or maybe I'm just forgetful.

The boys had the time of their lives, though. I took the opportunity to teach them a thing or two about the animals and about courtesy. OK, well, Khaty the Orang Utan baby actually started it. After showing off her skills in peeling the skin off a coconut, she took the husks and threw it in the bin. That's educational entertainment for you!

I've heard people say the place was in a bad shape and that the animals lacked care. But that's not what I saw yesterday. Some parts of the area were closed for repair and that the animals there, to my untrained eyes, looked taken care of. Plus, the toilets there are actually being cleaned.

Maybe what it needs is just more visitors. For that, I recommend you to visit our National Zoo for an educational trip, not to mention healthy (take the walk instead of the coach). It'll certainly saves you more compared to a weekend outing to KLCC. Definitely!

The Reason

I went into hiding for the past two weeks, supposedly to gather back my dwindling strength after an emotional battle with the army of demons that reside in my big yet cute head. The truth is, apart from attending the compulsory 2 day course, I spent much of the 'hiding' time worrying, arguing, lashing out at the wrong targets and looking for stalls that sell durians and longans, in that order.

However, I think, the intensity of the above mentioned activities have lessened.